As I wandered, I wondered.
What can I do to make the world a more wonderful place?

As I searched, I saw the stars shining in space

As I observed, I opened to optimism

As I contemplated, I continued onto compassionism

As I became aware, all things began to align

As I determined, there is no duplicity in the grand design

As I pondered, the pure perfection presented itself

The lesson I learned is we must love ourself.

Heal Thyself

Things have not been going well, and I thought life would be better if I could heal my inner child.  But when I went to see my inner child, I saw darkness lying next to her.

Fortunately, I recognized this darkness, which did not instill fear in me.  I knew it was there, serving as a shield to protect the inner child.

The Darkness

However, I was surprised to see the darkness had returned.  When I last left it, it was laughing and shining beautifully.  I asked why it had reverted to its old form, and it replied I had not changed.  You saw me how you wanted to see me. 

Oh, came my reply.  The ego looked at me and laughed.  Why do you need to see the child?  It asked.

I replied that I wanted to heal us and thought we could recover faster if I started with her.

The ego laughed and said, we do not need healing, and if you try to approach her, I will devour her.

The Mother and Child

At this point, the child awoke, reached over, and hugged the darkness.  With the touch of its mother, the ego mellowed. 

Now, the inner child had no idea it had given birth to the ego, and the ego had no idea the inner child was its mother.  They had not recognized that relationship within each other.

It was at this moment that I recognized the truth.  While the inner child stayed young and innocent, the ego had grown and aged, evolving into the darkness I see before me.

It was born of the child’s hurt, and to protect the child from the outside world, it continued to grow and shield the child from the world’s misery. 

Ego

I always knew my inner child was safe with my ego, but I did not know why until I realized this.  The ego appears as darkness when, in reality, it should be seen as the warrior’s shield.

Now, I realize I must also handle my ego with kid gloves.  I can no longer be angry at my ego because it does what it was born to do.  Therefore, I give my ego thanks and love.

Healing the We

My inner child needs healing, but my ego also requires it.

I will approach the child only after I have spent time with the ego and have healed it. I am unsure if I will be able to heal it entirely, but I will do my best to comfort it, and with that comfort, I hope we can begin to heal.

The ego was born from my inner child, and I could not heal her without first healing my ego.

To heal any part of me, I must heal the entire “we.”